Desperate

Dear blog,

I am so angry now. I don't understand why all these are happening to me.

1. This morning, my mom reminded my maid that I can't eat chicken because I'm coughing.

Before cooking dinner she asked, " Serene, I cook chicken uh? Ma'am said that you're coughing and you can't eat chicken."

Knowing that we prolly only have chicken or fish at home (due my aversion of pork), I nodded to approve her proposal. I wanted to ask her to cook fish instead but I'm too lazy/can't be bothered to grab my pen to write down what I meant to say. Plus she's quite long-winded once the convo is initiated.

As planned, I had chicken for dinner. DEEP-FRIED chicken. Seriously? I don't understand why she chose to deep-fry it knowing that I've already lost my voice completely. Trying to shut me up for a longer time? I was really disappointed. Not to mention, she seasoned the chicken like our salt is free. The chicken tasted like a carcass drowned in the dead sea for 10 years.

2. I am now mute and I don't think I can attend my SMU interview on Saturday.

I am dumb to ignore that my throat is already in a very bad shape. Still went on to sing like no one's business. Stupid me. Now I have to reschedule the interview again. This is really annoying. For me and the coordinator (bothers me more). I really want to scold/slap myself. Made mom spend so much for this fucking self-inflicted medical condition. Fuck.

3. Pissed at everything. Everything anybody do just pisses me off.

I will only be happy only when I'm finally healthy and when I'm finally done with all uni-related matters.

I brought everything upon myself. I really really want my voice back.

Maybe being more organised will help in reducing stress.

Gonna ignore the world.